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This is going to be my mushiest post yet. I miss my family(that means my mum my brother and my cousin). Im still not sure whether i miss my dad. Let me explain that. I recently moved away from home..(im laughing while typing this cause i feel silly) and im not just 6 hours away, im a whole day away!! by air.. :o...shocking right....(that was sarcasm btw) and i used to cuddle with my mum(she is one of the only 2 humans i like to cuddle with)...i will be writing a lot of stuff in brackets. We were very close and i was yanked from her suckling breast, if only i was weaned...if only....i then had to nurture myself and blablabla(lool..im being stupid here..) ok....down to what is really bugging me..as you guessed, iv got man issues... It all boils down to my insecurities really. I have no idea why im opening up in a post but oh well, whats the worst that could happen?..(dont answer that).. so i like this human and he likes me too, but i cant let go of my irrational fear of losing him, maybe i should see a shrink(a shrink seeing a shrink..hmmph...) and i dont even know what i want from him, though i know that i dont want him to have a girlfriend.(simple right?) not so much. Things seem to be weirder than usual lately(when i say weirder, i mean its usually weird but this is even worse and wrong) and i know what the problem is, i just dont know how to fix it. Im more muddled than ever whereas im usually a very rational person..(actually i am...except when i intentionally ignore common sense). He has been nothing but a sweetheart but im jst weird cos i sometimes do things that are wrong and im sure he has his limit even though he doesnt seem like it..that said,..im developing a phobia for skunks....every time i think of them or see them or perceive that awful odour, i get this psycho-physiological response and its so intense, i get goosebumps and i run hot and cold and i start running...it kinda feels like mind rape....(im weird i know) and its worse cos i was told i have to take a tomato bath to if i get sprayed by one... *the horror* Raw tomatoes make me puke....(its even evident in my dislike for ketchup..i dont eat burger or barbecues...) if u cannot spice up the tomato, i wont eat it.I will not be able to live if i get a tomato bath...i would melt..that im sure of. Ok enough ranting.iv got assignments...oops..i have to rant about that too...i hate this course im taking because it is a writing course and my prof would die if he read this piece cos it is so not right,..i am not using the ground rules, my comma's are all over the place, pronoun antecedent errors, horrible punctuation...etc...it is such a drag really....